Fuji · Syuusuke

And so I say with learned helplessness in my voice and the back of my hand pressed to my forehead, "My life is so hard; I suffer so much."

I spent an excessive amount on time on my last few rolls of film, to the point where I neglected some of my studies. Every ounce of effort was for naught.

In the darkroom, I must assign one roll of film to one reel. Two reels make one tank. The room must be completely dark while I apply the film to the reels, until I get each tank securely shut so that no light can interrupt the process. Well. I was having such a pleasant time in the darkroom at school -- I'd gotten all four rolls into the reels and was just about to began putting them in the tanks when someone opened the door completely, exposing all of my film.

Regardless of the number of apologies I receive, my work was destroyed. It's rather unfortunate that I recognize it as an accident, else I'd have someone to blame and release my frustration on. Alas, I ranted to mother for some time about it and she and I came to an agreement:

As long as I pay for the chemicals for developing et. all out of my pocket and ask for no help, we'll have the second upstairs bathroom turned into my own personal darkroom and she'll buy the developing equipment. She understands how much this means to me, and insists I call it a late birthday present.

I'm very excited -- this means I don't have to depend on the school's resources any longer. Thank you, mom. ♥

Ahh... So the end of the week is nigh. I'm working all weekend, save Saturday evening, which I set aside for Eiji♥.

It seems everyone has something interesting to talk about but me, what with alien kittens, injured knees and contemplating what to bake. I'm slightly jealous. What can I talk about?

I'm caught up from missing Monday, but that's to be expected by the end of the week. Didn't have much time for walking this week, unfortunately, so I feel behind in my photography, but as family always tells me, my education comes first so I can stabilize a career.

I don't understand where a diploma is going to get me in terms of talent. I choose not to acknowledge the lessons I 'learn' that pertain to my field, so why am I wasting my time and my family's money? What's best for one man isn't always best for all.

Ahh, but I digress. ^_^ Life with education is far simpler, whether or not I'd like to admit it. I only wish I had more time to do what I wish.

But don't we all?

Hark; I hath returned~ ^_^

The wedding was absolutely beautiful. My cousin has always been fascinated with Western fairy tales, especially that of the Disney princesses, so she convinced the groom, a man who has gained my approval, to have an ideal Western fairytale wedding.

At first, when the family had heard the news, they weren't too keen on the idea, but eventually everyone warmed up to it. My gift to her was an empty scrap book with a promise note inside, guaranteeing plenty of lovely photos of the wedding. I firmly believe I am fully capable of living up to that promise, but not because of my skill -- it's because of the nature and beauty of the ceremony itself, and the emotion behind it.

Enough of my foolish sentimentality. ^_^ I'm exhausted! Absolutely wiped, and it turns out I missed the introduction of a new project. Ahh... who's in my national history class? I'll need some help shaping up. All Monday notes are a complete must have for me, so anyone who has any classes with me, I would very much appreciate the favor.

Eiji, shopping with you was nice. It was wonderful to see you again -- I'd like to plan a repeat activity. When are you available this week? I'd love to spend more time with my best friend. ♥

Ahh, a public journal. It's a bit ironic, but a cute idea. ^_^ I wonder who will read this? Friends, presumably. I'll try not to lock my entries too much in order to use this thing to its maximum potential. Ahh, I s'pose I should mess around with the layout too, when I find time. Everyone else seems to have adjusted theirs to their satisfaction~ I wouldn't want to be left out.

I put all of my information in my userinfo, so if you're curious as to who I am, feel free to take a look there. My name is Fuji Syuusuke and I'm a senior in high school. I, amoung a few other students, work part time in a café, but I also work full time on my photography.

Well, I won't be updating this thing for a few more days, nor will I be in contact with anyone, as I'll be attending a cousin's wedding in Osaka. ^^ Ahh, I'll really have to try to catch up on classes when I get back! Thankfully, I'm only missing two days of class.

I'll get plenty of wonderful pictures of my family, and this I'm looking forward to. Yuuta looks too cute in his kimono; my camera won't be able to resist him. ^_^